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September 20 Singapore IdolHady Mirza vs Jonathan Leong
That's how it will be this coming Sunday; a familiar repeat of the 1st Singapore Idol competition two years ago between Sly and Taufik. As I have predicted, the females will always be disadvantaged in such a competition that is focused so much on image rather than talent. Anyway, there ain't any good females vocals except Matilda who was eliminated earlier. So, you see nobody wants to hear the fat lady sings; only a slim girl that sways!
While I was watching the results last Thursday, the teenager in me desperately wanted to see Jasmine go in; after all I was a boy once and would love to see a female face in the final showdown. But I guessed she wasn't good enough. But come to think of it; Jon didn't have a great voice too. Hady may have a good voice but his public image isn't that strong as Jon. So you see, the whole competition is not one of who has the most talent; but who has a better trade-off to give him an edge over the other contestant.
Hady, being a graduate of TP, went back to his alma mater to "collect some votes" for the finals. I am surprised that TP would host him with such short notice (actually they got no choice lah!); considering the fact that a ministerial visit to the campus would require 3 months' notice. To top it all, he was received by his ex-Careperson (kinda of form teacher) and the Director was made to shake his hand. Those who had the power and authority to alter his poly results were all there to see him in person; forgetting that he might had once skipped lectures and copied his tutorial assignments. Such is life; which turns the tables when we least expected.
It sometimes really pays to be a Singapore Idol wannabe!
So, we will see how these two boys square up this weekend. Did you ask me who I am voting? Depends what mindset I put on. If I were a teenaged girl (like my daughter), it will be JL all the way!!! But if I were Ken, I might sway my vote towards Hady. I supposed the final winner will not just be based on talent but also the ability to become synonymous with the Singapore Idol brand. I suspect the latter is far more important in such a showdown. September 13 Tainan Missions Trip (1 - 5 Sep 2006)what a trip! it opened my mind and eyes to many things i had not experienced before. it gave me a chance to see how God is working in other parts of the world. it was also a humbling experience for me. i learnt that we avail ourselves to God; He almost always surprises us. in the kingdom of God; there are no failures; only detours. the trip opened my eyes to see the needs of the people of the world like never before. it gave me a deeper sense of identification with the urgency to evangelise the unreached. God taught me that he can still use me despite my own unmet needs and problems. so the axiom that i learn from the coaching course on ministry flows out of our being became alive. God put together this team in a most marvellous way to create the greatest possible impact given the circumstances. i am still amazed how the team can accomplish so much with a span of only 5 days. finally, let me share with you an excerpt from my trip report. the pictures have been uploaded - enjoy!
I came with a small cup to be used by God; thinking that I have already humbled and availed myself to Him. Instead, He took my cup and in return gave me a larger cup filled of His goodness, mercy, grace and strength. I never imagined myself to be able to do so much in a span of just five days; but He multiplied it just like He did to the two fish and five loaves offered to Him. I also never thought that being part of a mission team would open my spiritual eyes to see wondrous things untold of. One sentence summarized my entire experience – What an Awesome God we serve! September 10 Memory Restoredi am a born thinker i guess. today i no longer have the memory lapse problem yesterday. but i seem to feel that one portion of my life is now erased away; or maybe not. whatever. i am supposed to blog on the recent mission trip but i have yet to gather the thoughts together. i will try to put together something in the next couple of days. one word summarised this trip - awesome! for details, see my next blog entry. September 09 Memory Lapse?for the past few hours, i have been having this strange phenomenon happening to me. i typed something and sent; then when I retrieved it, I don't seem to remember what I have written. it's almost like amnesia to me. even retrieving old messages seem like new to me. quite a scary thing to me. i was trying to remember someone's testimony shared a couple of days ago and i can't remember a single thing. i didn't bother about it until when i read old messages and they seem like new ones to me. eeee..........quite scary leh. am i losing my short-term memory? oh God, why is this happening to me? i seem to be also losing the sense of time. i keep forgetting that today is saturday. maybe i am tired or over-anxious. i need to rest now.
p.s. even as i go through this typed passage; some of these words seem new to me. scary, right? August 31 Lostthis is the first time in the last eight months that i am making an entry at midnight. something just happened in the office today that sets my mind thinking. i think and reflect so much that i can't sleep. the last entry was just about me going onto the life focus track. now i may have to speed up this process. God is telling me things that i don't like to hear now. my mission trip is on Friday and i have no time to react. i just may have to come back and address some of these things later. talk about bad timing. but then, God has never timed anything wrongly. his timing is perfect so i have to take it by faith. but i am still lost........so how? *sigh* i better get some sleep before i get too awake. now i know what it really means that "where your treasure is, there your heart will be also". now i know where my treasure and where my heart belongs. at least i gain this insight :) August 30 Reflections on TLC Formation Trackfinally, i have completed the formation track of the coaching course. after a month's break, i will go on to the life focus track. it promises to be an exciting time to dream big dreams and to refocus my life experiences. if what my coach shared with me is anything to go by, it's going to be life transforming if i take it seriously enough. during the last appointment with my coach last week, i spent four hours with him. it was just good timing that he happened to be in singapore for some other training. meeting him in person makes a whole world of difference. as i reflect upon my encounters with him over the last 13 weeks, i have three observations to make. firstly, when he listens to me, he really listens with his entire body, not just his ears - amazing feat! secondly, he has never ever uttered a single negative comment about me; everything he said were affirming. finally, his sharings and life stories are an open book for me. i am privileged to see how God has shaped him to be the man he is now. seeing him makes me believe that the first coaching value - believing in people; and the last value - each person is unique. just going through the formation track itself is already a mind-boggling experience. so many paradigms have changed and preconceptions dispelled from my mind. what an amazing course! August 21 Hotel Rwandai read about the genocide committed by the Hutus on the Tutsis in Rwanda in my recent read "Collapse". then i watched an excerpt of how it was like through the movie "Hotel Rwanda". what an amazing story; not the brutality part of it but the courage and compassion of Paul Rusesabagina, played by the versatile Don Cheadle. the movie brought the life the plight of the tutsi people as they were oppressed and killed by the Hutus. moderen history recorded for us that nearly 1 million was massacred. how could a fellow human being bear to kill another one without even blinking. the atrocities inflicted can find no words to describe. but more so, the vision and passion of Paul (who was a Hutu), bent on saving as many Tutsis as possible, becomes a brilliant light in the midst of the dark months of 1994 in Rwanda. what was portrayed in the movie led me to think about the depravity of man and his propensity to embrace extreme evil paralleled only with the savage behaviour of beasts of the animal kingdom. no wonder man needs grace and salvation. apart from this, there is no hope if we depend on what we have inside of us. only when our hearts are invaded by God will be hope to change our fallen nature. August 16 Disclaimerdear all who frequent my blog. i have decided not to continue the story of letters between the father and the teenaged daughter. i will just give you a couple of reasons. i went on to read a few more of the letters between them and realise there was too much frustration and till this day, their relationship is still at best polite; but to me more like indifferent or stalemate. so, it weren't be too encouraging to post these excerpts here. the other reason is that i the letters between the father and the daughter never happened. it was created in the moment of my ingenious imagination and found that i could not bear to fool my fellow bloggers anymore. this thought came as i was browsing through the celebrity bloggers that many singaporeans were raving about. now i don't want to be in the same league as them; sharing stories and events that never happened.
with this matter resolved; rest assured that the other things like high bp, coaching, holidays etc are real. i will continue to blog about these things although i know that my blog will never be as popular as mr brown or xiaxue but does it matter? the blogging world is large enough to accomodate a simple blogger like me. while i may be obscure but i sure am thankful for those who drop by to say hello. my blog, unlike others, exists not for myself but for others. have fun! August 13 A PoemI have been wanting to 'promote' this poem for quite a while; ever since I heard it read by tha author about two months ago. I will just introduce the poet and let you decide for yourself if she is good enough.
Poet: Vivienne Yeo
Title: The More I Walk
The longer the journey,
The wiser I become.
The rockier the path,
The bolder my spirit.
The longer the walk,
The greater my stride.
The tougher the trudge,
The deeper my learning.
The broader my horizon,
The wealthier the vision.
The more I walk,
The closer I am -
With thee, my Oneness,
My sweet Universe.
Except for two comments, I generally like the poem. If not for these two areas, I would have given it five stars. The first point is: "the sharper my vision" would be much better. The second point is the last verse. I find it too new-agey. I would have preferred "with thee, my Creator, my sweet Universe" - a little bit more religious but more personal.
Generally, Vivienne came across to me as someone who loves verses; passionate beyond measure and would probably give up anything just to write verses and verses. The above poem could be found in her latest book collection of fifty poem titled "If You're Not, Why Not". It should be available in the leading bookstores. Anyway, I don't receive commission on this; just doing a local poet whom I admire a favour. Check it out yourself if you like the "The More I Walk" poem featured here.
August 08 The Island Nation Celebrates!Rising out from the swamps of her kampung beginnings
Refined through the fires of racial riots and confrontation
Raised through the days of British colonialism
Resolved to build a Nation on a little island called
SINGAPORE
On 9 August 2006
Singaporeans unite to celebrate
A common birthday
A common destiny
A common future
as
One People
One Heart
One Voice
&
TOGETHER WE SAY
Happy Birthday Singapore!
August 03 ????????????????i am listening to hillsongs' for all you've done album. the song is titled "With All I AM" ya, that's what i feel like doing. drop everything and just bow down and worship God. when you don't feel like doing anything or your day is in a mess; that's the best way to do.
SHOUT!
PRAISE!
WORSHIP GOD!
it is probably the best way to chase away the blues. only God matters to me now! everything else is relegated to second place. August 02 Titleless BlogThis is mid-week. Sometimes I don't know what I am doing. I know some of my colleagues and friends read this space but don't leave comments. That's okay. If you happen to read this, just know that what I write here is only meant for your consumption.
Once in a while, I get this feeling that there must be something more to life than what I am doing now. I took on the formation track of the coaching course thinking that I might be able to sort this out. It's already week 10 out of the 13 weeks and I am still getting nowhere. Does this mean that the course is not helpful? No, it makes me think harder as the Life Focus track is supposed to address my personal dream. That sounds formidable on the surface but the following track promises to help us bring that to reality. Maybe it's wishful thinking. Well, when you reach my age and station in life; you are willing to think harder than you supposed to. I am not looking to leave a legacy because that's not the most important. It's about making the most use of my remaining days and not waste away the time God has entrusted in my hands.
When I look at the people around me, I often ask myself this question. Do they think about life the way I see it? Or are they so contended that nothing shakes them from their focus? Having lived more than 45 years of my life, I am inclined to think that most people are able to hide behind a facade that creates a false image of whom they really are. It is a facade that hides the pain, the struggles and the inadequacies of a fallen human being. Why am I so sure because I have seen enough not to conclude otherwise.
OK, ranting quota has been reached today. More next time........less you become like me August 01 Feeling Flushedi am feeling my bp going up again. must have been the rich food i had last week. i wonder if it is really so. dun tell me the effect is so fast. i registered 130/90 recently which is a reading i haven't got for a long time. then again, i also have been too lax in my diet although my exercise routine remains consistent and regular. my plan is to get it down to the normal level again with a bit more exercise and a tough rein on my diet. the salt intake has to come down and no more fried stuff for a while. looks like i really must not slacken on both exercise and diet; my body is just too sensitive to such things.
as i said before, i will be maintaining two blogs. this one mainly for personal stuff. the other one will be dedicated to the art of writing and its related matters. meanwhile, if u are free, drop by and make some comments on both.
sometimes i feel like i am blogging for myself...............duh July 31 Moving House (II)i just managed to enable comments on my new blog, so go there and try it out. i will still hold two blogs until i am used to the new one. both will be updated on a regular basis; albeit not daily.
meanwhile, i am busy with a few other stuff. got an article to write for a magazine which is due first week of sep. just signed up for a teaching (mission) trip to Tainan. wrapping up my coaching course for the formation track, finishing end of august. not forgetting some proposal papers to write at work. ha, come to think of it, it is happy busyness.
oh yah, i supposed to write about my review on "on writing" by stephen king. he's a good writer; he makes writing sounds so easy. the best part of the book was his retelling of his narrowing escape from death in a road accident. he was hurt so badly that sitting down to write is a pain during the stages of recuperation. but king's passion for writing got the better of the situation. he said throughout the book that he writes out of passion, not for the money; not then, not now! how noble but i think i believe him. i do admire his wife, tabitha who sticked with him through thick and thin - her courage, belief and confidence in him. no wonder their marriage survived through the good and bad times. in short, king writes about life and his writing is a reflection of the seasons of life he and his wife and children have gone through. July 28 Moving Housei went house hunting today and found a new place
started renovating it as it wasn't move-in condition
expected to ready by next week if everything goes well
my new address
mind your steps when you come
Bloggingsometimes this blogging really freaks me out. it takes like ages to edit something; must be the spyware or adware causing all these slowdowns. i want to change my background music but forgot how to do it anymore; can't find the info anywhere. to make matters worse, i sometimes run out of ideas to blog so i end up ranting and raving over trivia that no one cares or wants to know. then, i also tried to change host hoping that it will give me a blogskin look but i never figure it out still. why can't someone make things easier for an old man like me who just want to have some fun blogging. actually, come to think of it many bloggers i know change blogskin so often than changing their clothes. i guess the reason is that young people has a great affinity for blogging and they just can't stand seeing the same things day in and day out; or rather month in and month out. i suppose it's okay as that's their vibrancy and energy. why put a cap on bountiful, youthful energy. (notice my incoherent thots in one whole paragraph) *sigh* July 21 On Reading Writingha, this is the second writing book i read. the first one was "the elements of style" by strunk and white. u know what, stephen king highly recommended strunk's book too. i feel like i have learnt all i need to know about writing, not fiction or non-fiction in particular, but just pure writing. both strunk and king made it sound so darn easy!
i will review king's book later. i now see him from a different perpsective. this is one book that makes a difference; particularly so when he finished it while recuperating from a near-death road accident. something like this will change any person.
stay tuned............have a good weekend while you wait July 18 Lost Postremember the story of the letters between the teenaged girl and her father, i have yet to get the rest of the story from my friend. when the time is right i will come back to it.
meanwhile, there isn't much to rant or rave after the World Cup fever. i'll not compete with mr brown to talk about current affairs. i'm just another ordinary blogger trying to crack my head to find things to post.
before i go i just want to leave this catch phrase which i learn recently. many of us adopt the "see first, then do" and sometime may not end up doing anything at all. i realise that having a "do first, then see" allows God to work through us and build our faith. next time some biggy task comes your way; try to do first and then see how God works through it. i can almost guarantee your faith will be strengthened.
bye for now.............. July 10 Soccer - The Game of LifeI am still recovering from the World Cup fever. Every 4 years, many people in the world are drawn into this; even those who have never watched a single soccer match in the last 4 years. Within a span of 4 weeks, they became familiar with names like Zidane (not anymore!), Beckham (also retiring), Ronaldo (the bald or the bad?), Owen (where was he?) and the upcoming ones like Ripery, Rooney or Ronaldinho. They also undergo a crash course on soccer rules like offside, P.S.O. and free kicks. My wife is one of these people.
Even as I reflect on the couple of matches I watched (can count with one hand because of the late nights or rather wee hours of the morning), I am inclined to think that soccer is both ugly and beautiful. It has in it the makings of a demon or an angel out of any soccer player. Everyone crytall-balls the outcome of each match; oblivious of the actual odds and the vulnerability of each competing team. I am inclined to think that those who try to place their bets on their favorite team don't understand human nature. The red card has an uncanny way of hunting down those players who should be staying on the field; if only they knew! How many great players have fallen prey to this. The latest was of course Zinedine Zidane.
The irony of it all is that people all of the world including yours truly are such suckers for a game who can be so full of controversies, excitement, exhilaration, frustration and even pain to some.................it is almost short of idol worshipping! However, on the other hand, it is a game that so closely reflects the real life. It bares it all; the triumphs and failures; the griefs and the glories; the victors and the vanquished. Isn't life like that? The thing that tops it all is its ability to portray human nature to the core; complete with its ugliness and beauty.
So, you decide for yourself if it is still worth watching soccer? If watching it stirs up a paradox of sorts in you; you are probably experiencing the game of life. July 06 Destiny, where art thou?you may be wondering why i chose the title for this blog entry. i am not sure who reads my blog except those who post comments on it. would it be relatives, friends, colleagues or students? i know some of u out there read it but never admit and share your thoughts. anyway, what i am going to share will let u into my world a little; but not a lot. (beware, this is a long post)
just this week, a couple of incidents that happen at work compels me to think and reflect. i just celebrated my birthday last weekend; didn't feel very much as compared to the time i turned 40. only the thought of turning 50 haunts me now!
now i ain't reflecting on my age. i was thinking on a dilemma that i have for a while. it's just the events this week that really trigger me to think. on one hand, i dislike routines because i do get bored. so i expect to be excited over new things. unfortunately the problem i have is that...........i also hate and fear new challenges and prefer the security and comfort of some kind of routine in my life. so you see the struggle i have with routine and challenges. i suppose everyone shares the same problem.
go further, i begin to question where do i fit into this world. am i here to get married, raise a family and work on a 9 to 5 job and hopefully retire healthy and with sufficient funds on hand??? when you are pressing 50, this crosses your mind very often. in fact, i started thinking about it when i was 40. still thinking lah.
like all reflections, there is always a silver lining. i find my coaching course giving me a glimpse of who i can be and where i will be eventually. there are some issues that i need to sort out but all is not lost. i believe God is at work in and through me regardless of how i feel (so glad about this; i take comfort in this).
thank you for bearing with this long post. i just have to get it off my chest. i didn't want this to go into my normal written journal as there are already too many reflections recorded there. one less doesn't hurt.
so this post is dedicated to all my dear and loyal visitors. thank you for staying with me and keeping up with my ranting and ravings.
may the good Lord bless your hearts.
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